Sharing "Journey to the Cross" by Paul David Tripp.
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One of the scariest, most destructive aspects of sin is its ability not only to blind us, but to blind us to our blindness.
I fell into the trap once again. I didn’t see it coming, and I didn’t know it was happening until after the fact. I am sure I am not alone in this. I am persuaded it happens to us more often than we realize. It makes us closed, self-protective, and defensive. It prevents us from learning and growing. It weakens our receptivity to preaching and the ministry of the body of Christ. It makes us rather hard to live with and unapproachable. I was tempted once again to believe something that is not true, to accept it unchallenged, and to act upon it. It didn’t go well in the moment, and it would have done me harm if God hadn’t met me by his grace and opened my eyes.
A dear friend asked to see me, and when we met, he confronted me about my attitude in an email conversation. I was defensive because I fell into the trap that so many of us fall into. We succumb to believing that no one knows us better than we know ourselves. There is no more dangerous aspect of sin’s deceitfulness than this one. It will close you off from the insight-giving ministry of God’s word, it will cause you to resist divine conviction, and it will shut you off from the essential sanctifying ministry of the body of Christ. There is no more destructive delusion than this one.
You see, if sin blinds—and it does—then I will not have an accurate view of myself as long as there is sin remaining in me. Hebrews 3:12-13 "Be careful then, dear brothers and sisters. Make sure that your own hearts are not evil and unbelieving, turning you away from the living God. You must warn each other every day, while it is still 'today,' so that none of you will be deceived by sin and hardened against God." The remaining deceitfulness creates pockets of personal spiritual blindness that lead to functional inaccuracies in how I see, examine, and assess myself. This leads me to think I am more righteous, mature, consistent, or godly than I actually am, because there is sin of thought, desire, attitude, word, or action that I do not see or assess properly.
I fell into the trap once again. I didn’t see it coming, and I didn’t know it was happening until after the fact. I am sure I am not alone in this. I am persuaded it happens to us more often than we realize. It makes us closed, self-protective, and defensive. It prevents us from learning and growing. It weakens our receptivity to preaching and the ministry of the body of Christ. It makes us rather hard to live with and unapproachable. I was tempted once again to believe something that is not true, to accept it unchallenged, and to act upon it. It didn’t go well in the moment, and it would have done me harm if God hadn’t met me by his grace and opened my eyes.
A dear friend asked to see me, and when we met, he confronted me about my attitude in an email conversation. I was defensive because I fell into the trap that so many of us fall into. We succumb to believing that no one knows us better than we know ourselves. There is no more dangerous aspect of sin’s deceitfulness than this one. It will close you off from the insight-giving ministry of God’s word, it will cause you to resist divine conviction, and it will shut you off from the essential sanctifying ministry of the body of Christ. There is no more destructive delusion than this one.
You see, if sin blinds—and it does—then I will not have an accurate view of myself as long as there is sin remaining in me. Hebrews 3:12-13 "Be careful then, dear brothers and sisters. Make sure that your own hearts are not evil and unbelieving, turning you away from the living God. You must warn each other every day, while it is still 'today,' so that none of you will be deceived by sin and hardened against God." The remaining deceitfulness creates pockets of personal spiritual blindness that lead to functional inaccuracies in how I see, examine, and assess myself. This leads me to think I am more righteous, mature, consistent, or godly than I actually am, because there is sin of thought, desire, attitude, word, or action that I do not see or assess properly.
Now, if I think that no one knows me better than I know myself, and you come to me, confronting me with something that I haven’t seen, I feel no guilt in rejecting what you have to say about me. In fact, I will feel hurt that you have misjudged me in this way. Rather than feeling loved by you and by God and helped by you and God to grow in insight and maturity, I will feel wrongly condemned. Your ministry to me, rather than being hope-giving, will be seen as an affront, and if this happens repeatedly, well, there won’t be much relationship left between us. I will walk away thinking that wrongful accusations ended our relationship, when really, you were attempting to do for me exactly what I and everyone else need.
All this happens because sin not only blinds us, but it also blinds us to our blindness. We think we see clearly when we don’t. We think we know ourselves when, in fact, we don’t know ourselves as well as we think we do. We think that we’re open to God and to the ministry of others, when we can be way more defensive than we realize. We think we are approachable, but we get quickly argumentative when we are accused of something that is outside the field of our own self-knowledge. We fall easily into this attractive trap of delusion, assuming that we know ourselves better than anyone else does or ever will.
Today, there will be thousands and thousands of conversations that become awkward, uncomfortable, and derailed because of what I have just described. Many of us resist the loving, correcting, and protecting convicting ministry of the Holy Spirit, but we do not realize it. Many of us say we love the church, but we are functionally not open, not approachable, and not humbly ready to listen when we are confronted by what we have not seen or do not know about ourselves. So I want to encourage you to do some new things during this Lenten season.
1. Take some time to confess your blindness, and pray for grace to see.
2. Admit to God and others that there have been times when you have been less than open and approachable.
3. Forsake forever the belief that no one knows you better than yourself.
4. Pray for the willingness to benefit from the confronting love of others.
5. Go to the principal people in your life, and ask them to help you to see what you probably wouldn’t see without them.
6. Take time to celebrate that your Savior of grace won’t leave you to your blindness now, and that the day is coming when your blindness will forever end.
GOING DEEPER
Reflection Questions
1. Do you believe that you know yourself better than anyone else does? When have you seen that this might not be the case?
2. Think back on a time when you were hardened toward your sin or distant from God. At that time, were there sins you were not admitting to yourself?
3. Ask a close friend if there are areas of hardheartedness or sins that he or she has noticed you are becoming blind to. Be humbly, prayerfully ready to receive the answer with gratitude and grace.
Read Psalm 139, where we learn about God searching our hearts and knowing us even when we are misjudged by others. Ask God to search your heart, and confess any sin he reveals to you.
For the choir director: A psalm of David.1. Do you believe that you know yourself better than anyone else does? When have you seen that this might not be the case?
2. Think back on a time when you were hardened toward your sin or distant from God. At that time, were there sins you were not admitting to yourself?
3. Ask a close friend if there are areas of hardheartedness or sins that he or she has noticed you are becoming blind to. Be humbly, prayerfully ready to receive the answer with gratitude and grace.
Read Psalm 139, where we learn about God searching our hearts and knowing us even when we are misjudged by others. Ask God to search your heart, and confess any sin he reveals to you.
Psalm 139
1 O Lord, you have examined my heart and know everything about me. 2 You know when I sit down or stand up. You know my thoughts even when I’m far away. 3 You see me when I travel and when I rest at home. You know everything I do. 4 You know what I am going to say even before I say it, Lord. 5 You go before me and follow me. You place your hand of blessing on my head. 6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too great for me to understand!
7 I can never escape from your Spirit! I can never get away from your presence! 8 If I go up to heaven, you are there; if I go down to the grave, you are there. 9 If I ride the wings of the morning, if I dwell by the farthest oceans, 10 even there your hand will guide me, and your strength will support me. 11 I could ask the darkness to hide me and the light around me to become night— 12 but even in darkness I cannot hide from you. To you, the night shines as bright as day. Darkness and light are the same to you.
13 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb. 14 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.15 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. 16 You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.
17 How precious are your thoughts about me, O God. They cannot be numbered! 18 I can’t even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand! And when I wake up, you are still with me!
19 O God, if only you would destroy the wicked! Get out of my life, you murderers! 20 They blaspheme you; your enemies misuse your name. 21 O Lord, shouldn’t I hate those who hate you?
Shouldn’t I despise those who oppose you? 22 Yes, I hate them with total hatred, for your enemies are my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. 24 Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life.